time machine ERRor

My brother had a haircut yesterday. He hates it.. he say it's too fuckin long.
I laugh when I see because it look like hes wearing a wig. like fake hair on top of his head.



I happy he let me cut it. now he look hecka better.



dont you think so?

ps.
I know my english sucks. But I kinda dig it that way.
I not know and not care if this make you grammar perfect wannabes cringe when you read.
hell, i not know if there's even a YOU here.

pps.
sites fucking up again.
i hate you twelveseven.org
i hate you nunuh.com

Went to the library today and got me a Stephen King book. Occupy me for the rest of the week.

And here is Mom. And a plunging neckline.. NOWAY!

Mom Mom.


I too tired to write. I sent an email to Marvin and I not feel the need to tell anything here anymore. He is my Journal in a way too.. so yeah.

Pff, I am getting his writing style. the nots. the using of normal mode verbs (forgot the tecknical term) apupupupu away.

My new domain isn't working still. DUDE. what's wrong with it? Propagate propagate name servers propagate NOW. It's been two days! SHIT.

Oh shit. My website! I accidentally deleted my database. I'm not really sad about it.. Figured I better start from scratch.. so I tried to reinstall the cms I was using (Wordpress) but my freaking account won't let me. I'm not sure what the problem is, I had swept the root folder clean, to ensure that installation won't have any trouble with other scripts, but bagoom boom booooo!! No luck. So I bought a new domain. ..AND... my friend, Rich, decided to host me for free.. yeah baby!! Thanks so much, Rich, you rock!

Yay! I finally got my new camera!
It's a Canon SD600..

Currently Listening: Modest Mouse - Satin in a Coffin

A week left.

WEAK.

Things are spinning again. Twisted brain inside a twisted head.
A week's time of pulling and pushing thoughts. Trying to organize this life.. to leave it neatly tucked until I get the chance to visit and live it again.

Bummer.
Anybody to lean on?

I guess Meanne's there. Yeah. Kilig.
I'll never forget the 826 bar. Shet you! Why did you have to be that sweet to me?

If I can only stop thy lips curling.. smile grin.. gah.
i hate you.

Gahh!! This day has been so so much FUN! It's my second time to go to the snowy mountains! My first time was at Mt. Rainier. I had only been more or less than a week in Seattle (when they brought us there last year). Just imagine me, coming from a tropical country, suddenly being taken to a place full of snow.. nothing but snow. I can hardly move around. I only did coz they were taking pictures of us. wekekeke. I didn't join my cousins when they played in the snow coz just holding it made my hand feel like it's bein pricked by a thousand needles. I only watched them with my chattering teeth and knocking knees. kawawa naman ako. promise.

BUT this time was different. I think I've adjusted a bit to the cold climate. I was running around, having snowfights, getting on sleds, and plainly, being able to stand the coldness of the snow. Even that I got my butt/jeans wet and freezing hands.. I didn't mind at all! Sige paren ako!! Hahaha!!! Tapos, it's so cool coz it started to snow pa! Hihihi!!








Thanks to my mom, who took these pics. Don't you think she caught some good solid action there?? Hahaha!!!

Okay, so it doesn't look like me. but hey.. I tried. Hahaha!!

BTW, I'll be in the Philippines on Jan9 to Feb7! Yehey!!!!!! I wish it was earlier so I'd celebrate New Years there.. blah.

Daisy Rock's Rock Candy in Champagne Sparkle

my ultimate guitar dream!!
Photo by www.stringbeanmerchandise.com
better and close up pics HERE


tangina nyan.
may stars pa sya bwiset talaga! ang mahal lang ehhh!! $350 ang yabang masyado!

pucha. kung marunong lang talaga ako mag gitara! huhuhu!!

quick sarj.. learn learn!!
syempre bago mag electric.. dapat acoustic muna! hahahha!!
teka teka.. pwede ba ako mag start sa electric nalang?

You are never too old to learn. "Unless you have some physical disability, like arthritis, you can always pick up a guitar and learn some new tricks. Many studies have shown that learning an instrument and playing music are effective ways to keep the brain healthy and functioning at its peak, no matter what age you are when you start."

pucha. comedy talaga ito. mukang 2 lang upper teeth ko. LOL! Halatang umbag sa tawa. Nyok!



Merry merry Christmas!
Yesterday, went to downtown and got my cousins their Christmas pressies.
For each family, bought Assosrted Chocolate Box. A staple during this season. Let's call it the safe gift. Nyoknyok.

I'd love to go to Old navy to buy me a new scarf+coat.

( ps i want one of these )
painfully su-weet.

doing things really simple.
i like photoshop.
i just dont have the time to really burn my photos yet.

be better with this thing next time.
first i need to get an ibook. a powerbook will be better though. nyok
pakyu.


sankaterbang emohang bucketfull of thoughts.


ahehehe. tagu tayu! pa kiss nga!


plainjane sarah jane. ako yawnnn.
oo panget kutis kutisan ko. pake mo.


eh sa wala eh.. simangot.


doblehan. "two of twenty twos" title nito ah.
kasi 2 ako. 22y/o ako.


pakyu ulit. sana mas maganda sa susunod. sana may mga tunay akong models. sana yung kada ko. i miss them.
excited na ako sa june.
sana makauwi.

multiply changed it's GUI.

o.k..

okay.. so I can't keep 3 blogsites all at the same time.
so please head on over to my domain.

NUNUH.COM

Thankies my lovelies.
(I'll still keep this site open, but will be for random posts only)

I decided to take off the link to here from my domain coz I'll be ranting more secretly here. No one ever goes here anyway. And assume that I won't renew my domain, which will expire on 2007, I'll be happy to stay here in LiveJournal. Ahehehe.

Oh, and something last week shocked the hell crap out of me!! I went to visit Sherri's blog and read about how she is engaged to be married to Chad (guitarist of New Found Glory).. wuhuhuuu.. Noodle, Cel, nababasa nyo ba ito? Si Sherri naten ay ikakasal na! Wuhuhuhuboohoohoooooooo!!!

Pero happy naren ako coz CHad seems to be a good guy, oh well, that's what Sherri's dad says.. yeah, I read it on his blog too. Ahahahha!! Here:
Sherri DuPree: http://www.eisley.com/journals/sherri/
Boyd DuPree: http://www.eisley.com/journals/trolleywood/

In case you didn't know, Sherri is my favorite girl. Vocals and guitars from the band Eisley.

Shoo.. Ta-ta.

Single whispers with lonely echoes,
Simple books need not to follow.
Leaping timeframes;
That got her stuck in a looping sorrow,
Unmasking such poor dwindling stature.

A daunting fate..
A haunting mask..
A shallow mind,
A tiring task.

BoredBukowskiSarjie Video

Enjoy yaseeme.?
Click here to play the video.

Syempre at halatang bored ako no?
Music used is Bukowski by Modest Mouse. One of my favorite bands .. EVAHHH!
And syempre ang star.. Si starry Sarj (as coined by starry jA).. falling down a sink hole.. of pit black boredom.

Lately, I have been feeling less and less interested with blogging, and this website.. and all my other websites. (-.-) And somehow, for reason I can not understand, I feel defeated. Hay. Maybe because I am losing interest in the one thing I know interests me the most - Designing. I don't think that I have enough creativity and passion to pursue that career. I mean, I want it, but I am not talented enough. And my fear of not succeeding is telling me to back off. Surely some will say uplifting words to me, to follow my dreams, and to try taking that path nevertheless. Mind you.. I AM NOT FISHING for any of these comments. (i just dont know how to turn the comments off)

And the freaking school hunt is stressing me. I still don't know what course to take, thus making it harder to find the right school for me. Shit. And I do MEAN IT.


I have lost my appetite.. which is not really a surprise, because I haven't gained a feather since we moved to the new place. I knew I lost weight because of my unhealthy habit of staying up too late, but now I am rethinking that. A possibility, and a probable existing problem, of an eating disorder has been passing my mind for months now. I don't seem eager to see the chocolate and ice cream bars in our fridge as I used to. I wonder why? Have I simply lost my craving, or that I lost my wanting to feed myself?? Talk about on the verge of being anorectic, and I don't want to be one. Actually, I have been presumed to have anorexia nervosa a couple of times already.. With this, I now force myself to eat. I see to it that I have a cupfull or two of ice cream after dinner. I eat chips after that. And sometimes, I stuff my face with chocolate bars and sweet treats while I work.

Oh my fucking idiotic self..
I do sound like I have an eating problem..
Relax. Relax......
I will be okay.

By the way, my work is only up 'til December.
So come next year, Sarjie is a bum. x_x

I seem to be enjoying my companionless life.
Or at least I am forcing myself.

Friends are for the weak.
Friends are for the weak.

I am bored. Nurr.

I tried to curl my hair this morning but I was late so I ended up with just two sets of em, both on the same side pa. Fugly! Hahahaha!! I like it very much, thank you!! Hahaha!!

Tignan mo yung picture!!
Oo yupz, my cellphone has lots of stickers.
I like stickers.
I am isip bata sometimes.
Wehehehe!!

And I'm suprised that the curls stayed up til I got home! Yay!! I love my curling iron! And it is so cheap pa! I got it for $20 only! Yahoo!!

And since it is Friday.. that means payday, huh? Yuhuu!!

Kahit malamig and sobrang ang tagal ko nag antay sa bus.. ayos lang. Hehehehe!!

And ito may YanYan akuu..
Ang sarap talaga.. it's my favorite, promise!



And I have new hostees! Susmejoskopo. Maloloka ako kaka assist sa kanila. Hay. Okay lang pero nakakapagod naman. From now on, ndi na talaga ako mag hohost unless may experience talaga sa FTP and Coding yung nag aapply.

oo na, alam ko na. let it go na.
fine fine fine.

are you really that interested sa home city ko.. at sa shoes ha??
or sa wala ka na kasing ma i-small talk sa akin?

hay nako.

isa lang eh.

lesbiana ako.
or ndi kita type.

syempre dahil umuulan kanina.. at ndi naman ako sinundo ni papa, asar talaga.. nag bus ako, at sinugod ang ambon. alamo sumakit talga yung kamay ko. sakto nga yung comment ni grace.. masakit nga talga sa kamay. feeling ko nilublob ko sa isang baldeng yelo yung kamay ko promise talga. naku, buti nalang at dala ko yung down (salamat sa term ni jaycee) jacket ko na may hood.. kung hinde.. nako patay akong bata ako.. and when I got home, my mom told me to wash it with warm water, eh matagal tagal ko naren tinapat sa faucet yung kamay ko, pero hanglamig paren nya.. binigyan nalang ako ng oil ni mama and gloves. huyysh.. i need gloves shet. nainggit nga ako dun sa ale kanina sa bus, may itim na gloves.. how swerte. ehh, malay ko ba naman uulan kanina?? malay ko bang ganito kalamig?? hweeeeee.


nampipipicture pala ako kanina. para malagay sa october 2005 folder sa gallery.ngangarag ngarag na batang sarjie.. hahahah!!! Ginawa kong wallpaper muka ko.. weird ako pero hahah, eh kasi parang ang okay talga pang wallpaper eh.. eto bali yung shot na yun.. eh talaga talga,, ngayon ko lang nasabihang wow ang ganda (ko naman dun) naman nung labas nung isang shot. EDITED:walangyang nakakasuya muka ko. pweee... tapos more pictures ko sa October2005 Gallery. visit visit if you shall.

magpasensya na at walang make up itowww.
yaan mo.. sige sige next time
I will glam up myself.. hhahahha..

"bakit ang tahimik mo sarj? di ka namn ganyan dati ha? grabe, ndi ako sanay! at ang girl mo na ngayon ha!?" -Tep (from a journal entry back in 2003.)

So I changed. I closed my eyes but I can't do that anymore. I did change. People change. gasgas ng line pero parang ndi paren.

I was reading my entries of 2002 and 2003, and it's really different to my entries now. Back then, i didn't care much if people read what i have written, but now, i feel like what I'm writing is so superficial due to the possible comments the readers will post. And it feels like im blogging just for the sake of it, which should not really be the case.

The memories i revisited showed me why i worte in the first place. To make a record of my life.. Pero most important was that I have a way to let out my angst, joys and pains.. my mind to speak for itself.. and plainly to put sarj out. The hidden one, the tangible one, the sarj, the me, the personality, the life. Ugh. Wish I can write like that again.. And I definitely will.

-dots-

I was gonna take out the links to this website, sa Friendster ko, eh kaka check ko lang last night kasi nag add ako ng online friends, anyway, may new message ako ulit, it's from Nina. Oh my gosh. So sabi nya andito na raw sya. Well, sa Canada pero at least nasa North America ren. Whee. Squee. Smack to the spot. Kaylangan ko na talga ng friends. Nabasa ko sa blog ni Ice,

biglang nag ka commercial yung juicy fruit...

"mas masaya kapag may barkada kang kasama.."

oh diba hindi ba sandamak mak na pang aasar yun.

I agree, I agree jan sa sinabi ni Ice. Isang gabundok na hampas sa likod. Dapat i-ban yang mga ganyan. Nakaka depress lang lalo. Ang hirap ng walang kaibigan lalo na I'm used to having my barkada around. Ang dami na nilang updates, naiingit ako. Ang saya nila. Magkakasama sila. Eh ako eto, nangangamote mag isa. MAG ISA. Leech.
Dapat ang motto ko ngayon eh: Friends are for the WEAK. Ha. Nakaw sa The 70's Show.

Gago na. Naiiyak nga talga ako.
Ang nakakaintindi lang siguro sakin yung taong katulad kong mag isa.

Wala na. Dati kahit malungkot ako, basta anjan kada, ayos na. pero ngayon wala.
Sabog na. Kalaban kalaban!!! Ayoko sayooo. Mag isa ako. I shall destroy me.

Sa pictures nalang pwedeng i-fake. Parang masaya.

Fake!

Bad trip pa I have killer stiff neck.

eto nalang gawin ko:: scribble... scribble..



Hello!! Hay. So hindi ko na nga na meet si Cel ngayon. Kaasar naman talaga!! Anyway, kaya ayun, nag photoshop nalang ako. And nanood ng games. Wow. Ndi ko magets, nung nasa Pinas ako, ndi ko talga ma love love ang basketball. Merong mga games na gusto ko panoorin pero mas madalas ayoko. Walang force na nagpupush sakin to watch it (pero, gusto ko naman ang game na yun, gusto ko mag basketball...) Hmm, pero dito naman, sobrang hooked ako sa baseball and football! Sobrang nasigaw pa ako pag nakakascore sila... yun nga lang ndi ko naman feel ang mag football and mag baseball. Sa baseball mejo lang. Weird no? Naisip ko lang. Kasi kanina may game yung Seahawks (football team ng Seattle) tapos 2 minutes nalang, ang score 10-4 in favor sa kalaban. Pero wow.. Ang galing.. Nakatouchdown sila making it 10-9, tapos may kick, naging 10-10 tapos last seconds, naka score ulit naging 10-13. Wow no!!! Sorry kung ndi nyo maintindihan. Ako ren ndi ko pa alam ang pinaka rules ng football, pero alam ko kung pano makascore. Ndi ko lang alam yung mga tawag and mga kick kick na yun na yung dapat sa gitna nung poste and stuff. Ahahah!! matututo ko rin yan pag dating ng panahon.

Eto pala, mga pictures ko kinuha ko sa phone ng Mom ko:


Hrmm, walang picture pose.
(i have droopy cheeks?!!?)


Kumakain ako pinicture-an ni Mama.
Rice syempre, salad, and some chocolate cookies! Hehehe!!!

kirsten dunst i crush thee

sana matapos na sya... ang busy busy ko kasi.. hay.. sana next week tapos ko na to. sana may time na ako tapusin.. hay hay hay.